Abandoned?

"Is there any way to make you feel more abandoned, more unworthy (i.e. of God's love) than to have everything in your life go wrong? Not at all and the ego sits back with its little satisfied look and saus, 'Ha, did it again. Boy, I'm good.'

What does one do with that? You tune out the voice of the ego and you listen for the soft sweetness of the voice of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit will say to you, 'This is an illusion that you created and as you have created it, you can uncreate it. As you have made it your truth, you can unmake it your truth.'"

10/13/2025 Blog. Archangel Gabriel, INTRODUCTION TO PRACTICAL SPIRITUALITY, Pg. 79. Copyright 2013 Rev. Penny Donovan. All rights reserved.

Many Faces of Anger

            “Anger is a strange thing. It wears many faces and one of those faces is depression. Depression is also a strange thing. It is a very subtle thing. People usually get far into it before they recognize it. It is one of those things that sort of creeps upon you and doesn't even let you know it is there until it has its roots deeply embedded in your psyche. Then you become aware that you are depressed.

            One of the symptoms of depression is a lack of caring. I don't care. 'If you want to do that, you go right ahead, I don't care.' The other is an abiding sorrow that seems to have no basis, a sadness that doesn't ever seem to get better, a feeling of deep grief without there being an external purpose for it.

            That is anger - unexpressed as anger - but nonetheless it is anger and its roots lie in the realization that you have to be forgiven. It doesn't matter if you don't know what for. Most people have not a clue. You don't actually have to be forgiven for anything, but because you believe you do, that is your awareness.

            You may not think, ‘I was a terrible person therefore God must forgive me.’ You may not even consciously have any connection to that. But underneath, in the pot of your soul, there is the belief that somewhere, sometime you did the unforgiveable. It isn't necessarily for you to know it. All that is necessary is for you to be aware of that feeling in the soul.

            This is the time when you listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit and you ask the Holy Spirit to come in and to intervene in your life and to take from you that which you do not see. That takes many steps. It isn’t a single step. The Holy Spirit comes instantly. The moment it is invited, it is there. But most people go through a series of steps. They ask the Holy Spirit to come and, for a little while things get better. Then things get worse again because, as I said, the ego will call up things.

            The other reason things get worse again is because you take back from the Holy Spirit that which you have given. You say, ‘Come and help me,’ and then you say, ‘No, don't help me.’ You don't consciously say, ‘No, don't help me.’ Sometimes you are outwardly working very hard at being helped, but inwardly you are not releasing to the Holy Spirit's power the grief, the anger that you are holding on to. So the depression will come back. When it does, simply ask again. Choose again to have the Holy Spirit come and take it form you.

            Now you may have to work at this many times over because everyone treasures their fears and their anxieties. Everyone treasures them even though they think, ‘Oh, I wish someone would come and take this away from me.’ If someone did, they would sau, ‘Get your hands off my fear! It is mine.’ And you would battle to keep it.

            But in truth, Beloveds, step-by-step, each time you ask, the Holy Spirit takes away more and more of the fear and if you must ask a thousand times a day, then so be it. But ask and willingly let go. Also when you ask the Holy Spirit to take something from you, it is wise to say, ‘Holy Spirit, please take this from me and please help me to allow you to take it,’ because many times on the one hand you are giving and on the other hand you are pulling it back. So it is very important for you to be aware that you have to also ask for help to let go of whatever you have asked.

            Don't forget, Beloveds, you have had this anger inside of you for thousands and thousands of years. So it is not something you are going to get rid of in the twinkling of an eye. But you do get rid of it. Each time the Holy Spirit is called upon, spirit becomes more powerful and the ego becomes less powerful. And so it goes, until at last you discover that you are forgiven. Because you are forgiving, you are forgiven. Then the love of God comes flooding in upon you and that love becomes your reality.”

10/12/2025 Blog. Archangel Gabriel, INTRODUCTION TO PRACTICAL SPIRITUALITY, Pg. 88-90. Copyright 2013 Rev. Penny Donovan. All rights reserved.

Protection

“Some years back, when Beloved Woman was a young girl, she was coming home from her job and had a long way to walk and it was dark. …As she got off the bus, a man she did not know also got off the bus and he paused to light a cigarette. She walked on and she knew he was following her. …So she said, ‘Do I need to be afraid?’ And this voice said to her, ‘No, you are safe.’ She is looking about this remote area and hearing this man walking behind her. She thought, ‘Well, what if I am not?’ And this voice said to her, ‘No, you are safe’, and out of the bushes stepped a great large dog and the dog walked right beside her. She stroked him and loved him and petted him. The man saw the dog and turned around and left.

            …As Beloved Woman got to the door of her home, she called her mother to come and see this wonderful dog she had brought home. Her mother came to the door and Beloved Woman said, ‘Mom, look at this,’ and the dog disappeared into thin air right before their eyes. The dog was a manifestation of the protection that she had and he manifested not for her sake but for the man to see. But if she had listened to fear, if she had said, ‘Oh no, I am not safe. I am not safe,’ that manifestation would not have happened because her fear would have dissolved it. But she trusted. Now you have to trust your intuition because it will always see you through. It will never, never lie to you.”

10/10/2025 Blog. Archangel Gabriel, INTRODUCTION TO PRACTICAL SPIRITUALITY, Pg. 40-41. Copyright 2013 Rev. Penny Donovan. All rights reserved.